Julie and Julia

     I believe I posted way back when about liking the movie and how it was a big part of getting me back on here and actually doing some kind of writing. Sure she had a gimmick that got her a book and movie deal and I wasn't exactly looking do go that route, but getting a book and movie deal, well hey wouldn't that be nice if it came from this. Yeah, so a few months later and reality setting in I now have a little cookie baking business going. Not bad so far. Having fun with it and enjoying baking and trying new things. Making a little money at it too, isn't too bad. Though it has kept me away from here for awhile. Sure it wasn't the only reason for my recent sabbatical but the other stuff I'm just not ready to get into on here.
     Like I said I loved the movie and the fact that it's somewhat true to life and this woman Julie Powell really exsists, really started blogging and got her book and movie deal. I believe she is still writing. Checked out her page and original blog some time back. But I had never gotten the chance to look at the book. Sure if I had still been working at the library I'd have been all over it and found it. Not the case. Last night at my in-laws for Turkey Day I saw a copy of it and flipped through and read some of it. No, I didn't even get through a whole chapter. Thought if i stayed in the potty reading that long it would be quite rude. Also, I really didn't want to.
     I was surprised by the beginning of it and have to say did not enjoy it at all. Sure I didn't get to the juice and meat of the book being the whole Julia project but something about the tone of the beginning really turned me off. Maybe she became more real, too real, and I like the picture of the movie better and don't want to lose it. Maybe I'd just become too jealous she got so lucky while I'm still here toiling away trying to figure out my life. Whatever it is I don't know that I'll ever pick the book up and read it again. Of course I could watch the movie over and over a hundred times though.
     I also recently learned an acquaintance is writing a book. I'm very excited for her and annoyed with myself as she's doing it for real and halfway done and I'm too afraid to get more than a few chapters down before I give up or find some reason to not continue. I have in my head lots of things to keep me from writing. A big one being this guy I dated told me how his mother had written a book. I thought that was great of course, but then he went on to tell me it was never published and so she never really wrote anymore when she used to all the time. So there's another big scary thought. What the hell would be the point in writing and finishing if no one ever saw it?
     Like I said I'm real good at talking myself out of actually doing any real writing. So I suck, and have not been happy with myself in that respect. And I have kept myself busy doing something I can do that I know people enjoy, my baking. Of course kept myself off of here too. Feeling like I wasn't even sure what the heck to write about here anymore. Hopefully I've knocked it out and I'll be back for you every day. I know I need to play back the good stuff over and over in my head and not the bad crap I do so well holding on to and reminding myself of constantly. So what if there are a whole bunch of new friends becoming bloggers too? I haven't posted in over a week and I've still had someone, or two or three or more, come looking at my page to see what I have to say every day. Though I've not been here in awhile. Now how many times should I repeat that to myself to keep in stuck in my head and myself going in a positive direction?