crazy time

Rob and I have been talking about the real possibility of a number five lately. As soon as we think one way something else happens and we may go another. I think the biggest thing for me is knowing it's still a real possibility. I can't say Yes I definitly want another baby now. Actually I don't want one now, but in another year or so probably. There are some things we want to do with the kiddies we have before we add on. Luckily we are young enough we can say ok maybe in a year or so. By the time that year or so goes by maybe we'll be sure we're done. For me I can't just say, No more babies for me. Not quite yet anyway. I see all the benefits of keeping our family the way it is. But I still think I want just one more. Want to feel that baby inside me. The big issue for me is what if there is more than one. Thats the scary factor. I had twins first so I knew nothing else. I've had two singles since and it was just cake with one. Plus there were older siblings around to help out. What a big bonus. When I was pregnant with Emily my first sonogram showed two sacs. One baby didn't take. But right there Emily was almost a twin too. I have heard also that as you get older your chances of twins increase. Here I had almost two sets while I was younger so I think my chance of twins again after I hit 35 next year might be pretty darn good. This is something we would have to be ready for.
We would try for a certain time of year for a newbies brithday if we go for it. When spring comes things get really crazy around here when it comes to birthdays. We have a two in the family in April but once my birthday hits in May its crazy time. From May 17th, mine, to June 19th there are eight birthdays we celebrate. Thats not even counting the four friends I have that fall in there also. We have our timeshare week as soon as school gets out. The very end of june to early july. So theres finishing up with school and getting on the road to florida. Once we get back we have two more birthdays in July. I told my husband there is no way we could have another birthday fall into the crazy time. We'd be shooting for a winter birthday. No trying until the holidays hit! Practice beforehand, Sure! Now that may take a little bit of the fun out of it but theres no way I'm chancing that one. Besides I will always know the babies birthday as I have scheduled c-sections. My only real surprise would be the sex.
And now I may start off another discussion. Rob always wants to know. I don't and will not if there is one more. Had to know with the twins. Found out with Emily for him. Jake, told him no way we're finding out. Same thing if theres another. Now if there winds up being two... well, maybe. Maybe there won't be another at all. We were going to start around these holidays but theres a big trip we want to take the kids on we just can't do with a newbie or two. So next holiday season we may be working on it. From where I sit now we will be. In another year you never know what can happen so there is no guarantee. I may not be so lucky and get pregnant as easily as I have been blessed with in the past. Maybe I'll be satisfied with the new baby, a puppy, my husband is determined to get this summer. Anything is possible.