Since I was a kid i have been able to fall asleep anywhere and in pretty much any position. There are some great pics of me not just sleeping on the floor, in the car, or in a high chair like normal little kids. I'll be sitting up, hanging upside down off the couch, or the one i remember the best is with my head on the couch cushions, my feet on the coffee table and my ass hanging down in between. i think i was about eight. maybe thats why now I don't care if any of my cats sleep on me. I kind of like it. I'm a cuddler, my husband is not so the cats and the kids make up for it I guess.
When i'm tired, like normal people i just want sleep. Now that i have kids i definitely don't get as much as i'd like or probably need. I can't say that any of them have been good sleepers. Well, maybe andrew, and i've got some great shots of him sleeping in funny ways so he's like his mom. But since he and robert were a two for one deal i still didn't catch a break on sleep. Lets take last night. I have had a cough for a week i cannot shake. As with anything cold related it is worse at night. when i finally got settled to go to bed I could not stop hacking. I gave up and went down to take cough medicine and vicks my feet as i felt the congestion coming on too. The vicks then of course brought on even more coughing. I felt bad for my husband as i knew he was trying to sleep, has to get up early for work, and stayed up late the night before for the game. I knew i wouldn't be able to sleep just yet so I took my pillow and blanket from our bed and went downstairs. It would have been nice if he had at least asked if i was ok. Guess maybe he didn't hear me hacking as much as i thought. So it was off to the couch and i flipped around the tv stations, cleared out the dvr stuff and after about an hour finally started dozing. Not long after i hear jacobs footsteps on the stairs. Now I feel bad as he's out of sorts looking for me and I bring him back up to bed. Of course he wants me to stay so I sit a few and I'm dozing as quickly as he is. Finally.
I jump awake, go back down to get my pillow and blanket and hear him up again. I figure I may as well lie with him and sleep than fight to stay awake while he goes back to sleep and then move again. A few hours later my husband comes in jakes room to kiss me goodbye. I get up and move into my bed at about 5:45am. The big boys come in to say goodbye a little later and then jake is up. He gets in bed with me for a few. Gets up gets his blanket and pillow and lies on the floor. a few minutes later he wants to hold my hand. I reach down. Anything to get just a little more sleep. I have until eight when I need to get emily up and ready for school. Not to be. Jake keeps moving, wanting both my hands and then finally wants me to come to the potty with him. I send him off and get up shortly before eight.
Last night was not a good night at all and I am exhausted today. If i could nap, if jake and roxanne would nap together, i'd definitely join them. Don't think that will be happening. I fight with jake telling him no on a lot of things all day long. He's two this is what happens. At night i'm done I want sleep no matter how i can get it. I'd camp out on his floor, let him sleep in my bed and vice versa and everything in between if it let me get to sleep that much faster when i'm done for the day and want nothing more than sleep. I did the same with the boys and with emily. Yes i will bitch and complain about it. Especially if i wasn't sleeping in the best position and my body is paying for it the next day. If it was the easiest way for me to get a little more sleep i'm taking it. When the boys were babies and I was living with my parents i'd make and extra trip to the bathroom during the day. I could lock everyone out, lie on the floor and close my eyes and rest in peace for just a few extra minutes. no it was not comfy or ever close to ideal rest. It was what i had and what i needed and it got me through the rest of the day. If thats what i have to do and some sucky nights like last night thats what i'm going to do. Sure i could yell as jake to go back to bed and make him cry and ignore him. cause then we may just wake up everyone elkse or i'll sleep like shit anyway knowing he went to bed crying. Sure there are nights he does when i've had enough or don't feel well and rob puts him to sleep and hes crying for mommy. But i'd rather be the one who is uncomfortable at night than make my child be.
I really feel for you. I know, with my kids having been 1 year and 3 weeks, and then 1 year and 2 months apart, that was an important factor for me. I worked full time, was pregnant, or had the little babies, and went to college, and had my tax business going all at the same time, with my job being 1 1/2 hours away. I can definitely relate. I would crawl under my desk at lunch break, and hide there to sleep. Fortunately, when it was weekends, the kids would let me catch up alot as they were very laid back and loved to sleep alot. I would say, lets all take a nap, and they would crawl in the waterbed and we'd be out for 2 to 3 hours. We would do that twice a day on the weekends. I paid for it when they got school age, as they never wanted to wake up for school they are so laid back. I hope you can get some much needed rest because you are not good to anyone else if you are not good to yourself first. Love ya, Aunt V
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