chocolate

I do not think men get cravings anything close to what women get. I think as I am getting older I cannot control them as much. Or maybe I just have more than before. A womans body changes a lot in the course of a lifetime. Growing up. After each child. These i've been through these I can talk about. Before I even had Jake I had my own Garfield cookie jar with my private stash of chocolate candy for when I needed it. My husband had the guys over for cards once while I was at work. He said someone was diabetic and needed something sweet. Fine no big thing right. Well my husband took everything out of my stash and let the guys and the kids who were home eat it all. Needless to say I was quite pissed. I won't go out and just buy myself a bag of candy. I had added to the stash after every holiday. I took the best from the kiddies goodies (since they always have way too much anyway) every halloween, christmas, easter, whatever. My favorites and added them to my stash. Needless to say there was quite a lot of yelling going on as I was pissed when I discovered my husband had just given away my stash. This was a few years ago and my husband knows to keep his hands off my stash. He will sneak a piece from time to time and make fun but he knows better than to decimate it. About a month ago the family was watching Bolt. I just kept thinking about chocolate and how I had a box of brownie mix in the cabinet. MMM wouldn't they be good. I got up made the brownies and ate three that night before bed. The next day I probably had two throughout the day. The kids came home and had some and by the time my husband arrived there were about four left. I had been outside with the kids. when I came back in I noticed the pan in the sink. My husbands hands full of what was left of the brownies. I was like Hello your not even going to save me one? Really? he asked. What nerve! i'm thinking. Yes. i say. ok here, he gave me one and I hid it in my new candy stash jar. Funny thing is i didn't eat it for another couple of days when i remembered it was there. My husband will tell you how I was very possessive of him when we were dating. Not so much anymore he says. I am very possessive over my food. Maybe even more so now that I've lost weight and I'm only letting myself eat so much of the sweet treats. When i can control myself that is. I like food waaaaay too much. I have learned I am a horder too. I have my own box of cocoa pebbles hidden so when my friend is visiting and I want chocolate first thing in the morning I know where to find it. Since i've been a kid I always had food hidden in my bedroom. It's been a long time since I had a real bedroom but now I have a pretty nightstand beside my bed. In it, my box of girl scout thin mints. Again MY box. I really don't know what it is about chocolate I just have to have it. Even more now after I have anything with sauce I crave a little piece afterwards. I also crave cheesy stuff. I can eat anything with goey cheese in it three times a day for a week when i want it. Salt is another one too. Not as much as the chocolate or cheese. But potato chips, tortilla chips, popcorn, that great basket of chips you get at El Dorado yummy. I will not even get started on fast food because that is another whole post itself. The weirdest thing is there are certain chocolates that I will devour. Others only if theres nothing better around. So yes I have my favorites. And if there really is nothing around I always have chocolate syrup and nesquik in the house for chocolate milk. And making a glass where you can barely taste the milk will get me through.