Too Early

Usually when my husband kisses me goodbye and leaves in the morning I have no problem getting back to sleep. Today my brain would not shut off. Even when I could, because amazingly early riser Jake was still sleeping, I could not. I tried for about and hour. Then I just was having too many good ideas I needed to get down on paper. I don't know if it's because I have nothing else to do now without the 'Job', or what. I feel like I have so many more ideas for what I can put on here. It's tough because I could be posting all the time. I've been good keeping it to one or two and saving a list for the days I'm not sure what to say or write about. God knows I have tons of material flitting around in my head.
Maybe that's just what it is. I'm super excited. I've had ideas for books and stories going on up there since I was in the seventh grade. Some I got out on paper. Some I was afraid to put out there. Although not much of anything I've even gotten on paper has been read since I've always been so paranoid people would think it sucked. Who wants to see their dream crash and burn? Not me, thanks. So I've been hiding behind the kids the house and the job. Now I have time. I'm making the most of it. Maybe it's 'cause I'm older and if some people think what I have to say sucks so be it. I'll hunt down the ones who like it and do it for them. :)
     Yesterday was a great day. I posted twice and got that writing itch out. I also went back to other writing I had started a few months ago. I edited, adjusted and reworked some of it. Usually that's the part I hate. I don't even like reading what I've read for fear it's bad and I can do nothing more with it. So, it would just get hidden. Not anymore, I hope anyway. Or at least I'm going to try. This I'm going to turn into something tangible even if I have to find a way to print it myself. Whats better is I have an idea thats been festering for a long time for the next "big project" that I think could really BE something. And while I have to keep that on the back burner 'till I'm through with the first it's what got me out of bed. If I have to wait to make that something, ideas I have for it now I don't want to lose need to get written and put away for later. I Had To get out of bed. Was too excited to stay still any longer despite the early hour.
I also got in some work that actually pays yesterday, babysitting for both my little charges. Made cookies with my kids and a nice yummy supper for the family. Oh and cleaned out my daughters closet, big doings there. I was back and forth to the computer or with pen and paper if that was easier and loved every minute of it. At one point I was just dancing around the kitchen I had so much excited energy it had to come out some way. Of course my daughter walked in and looked at me like I was nuts. "What are you doing?" 
"Nothing." I answered with a smile and finished up my little dance while she rolled her eyes and walked out. You see dancing myself for no reason, especially when there isn't even any music playing has probably never happened before. But I do think there will be lots of it to come in the future. Next time I'll have to make her join me.