Starting Over

I never expected to be at my job at the library for very long. I never expected I'd be forced to resign from it. Of course both those things happened and life is quite strange right now. Took an awesome 25 day road trip cross country with the family in July. August has pretty much sucked and I'd like it to be over already.  Also I'd like to know what the heck I'm going to do now. What I know is come September I may not be itching to be back at work as much as I am now because school will start and there will be a lot less togetherness than there is now. After the road trip and now being home all the time I'm feeling a little too much togetherness. But is jumping right back into another library job, should i even be able to get one, the right thing to do? I HATE CHANGE. This forced change may be the kick in the butt I need to attempt the dream. Stay home with the kids and write was always what I had planned. Of course that would mean making money from writing but reality is what it is and who really makes money from writing. So here I am again to take another stab at...??? something here anyway to keep me writing. At least staying home with the kids now extends to other peoples kids and I'm making a little money that way. It's a start I guess. I feel like I need a gimmick to click with people, to be successful, to get people to read me, to make something out of it. You know like from the movie Julie and Julia and the year she took to cook everything. Same with sh#t my dad says, tweets to book to tv show. Can't I be that lucky? Won't know unless I try. But for now I guess the gimmick is just me.