So did anyone even miss me yesterday? Hope so because as much as I'm doing this for myself it's kind of stupid if no one is reading it. I know I don't always make every day but I do try. The funk has hit yet again and it's really starting to get annoying. Especially when it lasts more than a day. Sure, it didn't help that I wasn't feeling 100% having a little cold and all. But here we are with yet another day.
If I could have crawled back into my nice warm bed and hid out under the covers for the day yesterday I would have. It was really all I kept thinking about. I was very grateful that I was able to do just that finally at 9:15pm last night. And Jake conked out nicely too, without me having to bring him back to his own bed a few times. Over the years I certainly have had plenty of these types of days. They were just fewer and further between than they've been lately. I'm sure I can come up with plenty of reasons why that is but let's not go there.
Maybe a few times a year or so I'd get to just stay in bed. Or close to it. Sure there'd be the initial get up and get whomever off to school. Then I'd get back in bed and veg with any little one that may have been home with me at the time. I'd doze, I'd cry, I'd watch TV, and of course get up and eat crap. Usually the only thing that made the day better. When time was up, I'd pull myself together and get dinner going or plan for take out for when school was over and eveyone came back home. Funky day being over for me then and knowing tomorrow was a new day. Not sure why I have these but I'm guessing I'm not the only one. Or if I am maybe I need to go see someone.
When our bedroom doubled as the living room for awhile I sometimes made that conscious choice to keep it as a bedroom and not close the bed up into the couch. At least for a few extra hours on certain days. The kids didn't care as they got to play on and hang out in mommy and daddy's bed. You do what you gotta do right?
Yesterday, I managed to do more than I expected. Of course when my only job of extra watching was 8-4 there was no way I was getting up to my bed. I guess I could have settled for the couch but with a one year old running around that really doesn't work too well. So we played and had lunch and got Jake to school. We hit the grocery store and made dinner for everyone. Although it felt as if I was just going through the motions. Which I guess I just was. Eventually I vegged and watched some TV while dinner was cooking. My family came home and the extra went home. Later I took Emily out to the neighborhood center. An extension of the library at her school, very nice. We'd never been able to go before as I was always working the only times they were open. It was a nice treat even if I still feel like I'm on the wrong side of the desk in any library.
Back on track today sort of. Blog is almost done. :) Hope to get in another for you later to make up for yesterday. Sink is cleared out and dishwasher is going. Getting off my butt to exercise next, even if it is only walking in front of the TV while I watch 'The Biggest Loser' from the other night. Two birds, one stone right? I'm definitely a fan of those two birds.
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