No we don't own a boat. I don't think that we ever will. Which is probably what prompted my late summer obsession. I love the beach, I love the water. I don't get out there as often as I might like but I do get there enough. I have never been out on someones' personal boat. Never known anyone close enough that owned one to get that chance. Maybe I never will. I have come to realize that's ok.
Facebook is such a funny thing. I've talked to a few of my girlfriends about the whole ex-boyfriend thing. Being friends on Facebook is one thing. Anything else, quite another. There may be chats and emails through Facebook that can bring closure or satisfy some curiosity leftover and hanging around your head. After coming home from the big trip and the whole mess of resigning from my job I was on Facebook quite a lot. One of my ex-boyfriends got a new boat. He was posting a lot about it. Every day it seemed there were new pictures taken from the water. I was definitely jealous. And started thinking about getting out there with him. Just to be on the boat mostly, but of course since it was an ex the mind would travel elsewhere. Of course I knew this was no possibility at all. Just a twisted obsession in my head for a little while. "What if I met him? What would happen? How could I get out there?" A dangerous game going on in my head. I know I'm not the only one who's played. I may just be the only one to admit it.
Eventually I started thinking about the boats I have been on. There's the Port Jeff ferry on a school trip to Conneticut back in 5th grade. The Fire Island ferry also school trip in 4th grade. Then of course the Sea Jet from Orient to go play at Foxwoods my husband and I have taken a few times. There was also the Harbor Cruise I took after prom with my friends. But then I remembered The Minnie Ha Ha Paddle boat up in Lake George. Rob and I were on it ages ago on our first weekend ever away alone together. Then of course some years later we took the kids out on it while we were there for a family trip. But the last (and strange because it was most recent) boat trip I remembered was from our anniversary just this past June.
Not only did I get the real surprize party for my May birthday in June, my husband had an awesome anniversary day planned for us at the end of the month. I was going to let the anniversary slide as we had a big trip coming just days after our anniversary. My husband had other plans. I knew bits and pieces. I knew it was going to be a full day in the city but what exactly filled the day, I was not sure. The last thing I expected was a brunch cruise down the Hudson past the Statue of Libery, over to the Brooklyn Bridge and back. It was amazing. He got me out on a boat on the water. Something he knew I'd love even if it wouldn't be his first pick. Even when we got in the cab and he told the driver whatever pier it was we were to go to I didn't think about a boat.
Unfortunately, I wasn't thrilled with where we were seated for brunch. My awesome husband got us moved upstairs by the window at a table by ourselves. As soon as we could we headed outside to the deck. We stayed there for pretty much the rest of the trip. The weather was absolutely perfect. I couldn't have asked for a better day. The view of the bridge up close from the water was wonderful. It may have been that much better knowing it was only a year before we had walked across it together for my birthday. Standing on the deck, hearing the water, feeling the breeze and his arms wrapped around me was one of the best places I've ever been in my life.
The rest of the day was great. Ending of course with the Yankee game and a limo ride home. I don't know why my anniversary boat ride wasn't the first thing to come to mind when thinking about getting out on the water. I know my head wasn't in the best place at the time. And of course my memeory isn't the best it could be. It took some time to come to the forefront but it was there. And always will be. I just have to make sure it stays in the forefront. Right where it belongs. I think way too much happened between then and now. My head was overfilled and a little wrecked. I think I've cleared it out some recalling the best things and putting them where they belong. First.
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