155

I weighed this last night after i got home from work and was hoping to maybe have dropped another pound by morning but guess not. was still the same. glad i went to bed with my stomach growling. which really isn't all that easy when your husbands sitting there next to you eating a bag of sun chips. thanks sweetie. i was temted to be mean and say so when are you going to start going back to the gym but i didn't. he'll do it when he's ready.
He joined over the summer. actually near the end of summer. it was $100 for the year which i did not think was a bad deal at all. he tried to get me to join too but one, we didn't have the cash before the promotion was over and two, i'm really not a gym person. no matter what i feel like i'm being watched and forget about trying to figure out how to use all those different machines. technology is really not my friend. at least most times. sure if we went together he could teach me and all that but really its just not my thing. plus when would we even have the time. he works days and afterschool three times a week. i babysit a lot of days now and work some evenings and also the weekends. he went a lot at first but once the holidays came that was it. this is another reason why i don't like gyms you go get into it great and then something comes up and your done and don't go back. if i'm working out at home i will always be at home no matter what. whatever may happen i will still be at home and know how i can fit in some exercise.
i really think it's funny that i've been doing a lot in the bathroom. not your typical workout room. but with a 3 year old momma's boy as my husband calls him if i don't lock him out i'm getting sat on and all that if i try to lie on the floor for crunches. the other day when i was doing my 8 min tae bo i nailed him in the head with my foot doing one of the kicks. i felt bad for a split second because i had told him and em to clear out for 10 minutes and i'd be done. they didn't listen and he got kicked in the head. hes fine don't worry.
so 155 is wonderful. its great to see but i'm soooo not feeling it. last night at work i was afraid to more for fear of splitting my pants. they felt so tight but i don't have much else to wear thats not going to feel tight. what really sucks it that these were my biggest go to comfy pants for work when i felt fat and martha was visiting or whatever. now they barely fit and it really sucks! so i'll have that feeling from last night in my head to keep my going. although i did a bad thing this morning. i made em and jake 2 slices of toast each. was goinbg to have a bowl of cereal but that never happened. i wound up eating what they didn't finish. we've been going through bread like crazy and i hate wasting it so i had emilys crusts and probably more that a slice from what was left of jakes. now if i had had my own it would have just been on slice instead i wound up eating more. oh well. lesson learned. again cause i have done this before. i don't want to waste the food but then end up sabotaging myself. not again. this snow and ice has to disappear so i can get to the store and stock up on bread and all the other stuff we need.
i may sabotage myself yet again later but i'm planning for that. been craving a big fat burger and fries so the hubby and i are going out to use one of our food gift cards when he gets home later. i also don't have to try to figure out what i'm making for dinner for all of us with not a lot of stuff in this house since i haven't been shopping in awhile. so j&r's later at like 7 when he's home from after school. i'm going to be really good the rest of the day and drink tons of water so i can enjoy later and not worry about it too much.