159

happy new year! and welcome back to me. yes its been awhile but i'm not even going to go there. just going to go. was thinking last night about how fun and exciting new years used to be when i was younger. there was always a party to go or more likely i was the one throwing the party. we were finding confetti in hidden spots in my basement for years after the parties i always had down there. my husband and i decided we'll try and throw one next year for our friends and their kids and we'll all have a ball. i love the craziness when theres a lot of people over having a good time.
so 159. well thats my weight right now and it really sucks! i few years ago i lost 75lbs but i of course did not stay there. my low was 129 and go that felt good. but my body didn't like being there and i stayed around 135-140 for awhile and was happy. i have gotten quite lazy again and hardly work out anymorw. well thats all changing starting today because it's grossing me out. and i'd also like to fit in some of the jeans i have without having to go buy a size up! that would royally suck.
i'm off to a good start i think. no one was up too early today but i still got myself going when we did get up. did my 20 squats while brushing my teeth and 50 crunches before unlocking the bathroom door so noone could bother me. i did my 8 minute tae bo with my new best friend again billy blanks. it felt really good. until you've done it you really can't understand. when u lose weight and get into shape exercising really feels good when u do it. i feel powerful and like i can do anything. and i usually wind up getting a lot more done on the days i exercise because i'm just not as tired. it takes energy to get off your ass and do it. but when u do theres such a surge of new energy for u. its just really good. so needless to say my goal is to get back to that 129 again. but if i could hit 125 it'd be great of course i'll take 135. no matter i need to be down there by may. andrews junior rotc program has this formal dinner dance thing the kids loved going to last year and i know we'll be doing it again. i want to fit in the dress i wore for this years at the least. at best i'd like to fit into this black dress i wore once when i was my lowest as its a size two but looks so good! if i make it i promise i'll figure out how to add a photo to this for you :) i also want to be comfortable in my clothes on the long road trip family vacation my husband and i are planning for july. more on that to come.
my dad bought the wii fit plus video game. we all got the wii fit when it cane out like 2 years ago. this is a bit of a hyped up version with some good extra stuff. the kids all love it and dad told us to take it home weds when we were there. so yesterday i had a little jump start. we took turns playing it most of the day. certain things on it use a lot of energy and are really good. others not so much. so needless to say after the hard ones i wanted a break and it was fun playing with the kids on it. this morning after my tae bo then breakfast for everyone it's back on again. i've gone back to some of the older games i had played on it before and the yoga and strenghth training are pretty damn hard for me right now.
i will probably do the 8 minute tae bo at least once more today and then of course the wii fit stuff. i think it's a good start for now. i want to ease myself back into the good routine i had going when i dropped all my weight. because it was pretty advanced there after awhile. i know if i tried doing the tae bo cardio (45min i was doing everyday) today i'd b flat on my back and done for the day and thats no good. i also have to get much better with what i'm eating again. or at least how much i'm eating. there will b no taking away the foods i love. i'm a carbs girl and if i can't have my burger and fries every once in awhile we will have a major problem! so 30 lbs by may. i'm pretty sure i can and now you all can come along for the ride. :)