5lbs!

154 baby. officially 5lbs gone. and i hope never to see them again. and i'll work my ass off to make that more a reality than a dream. just completed 20 miles on the bike. took me 100 mins. and burned 1156 calories. so that devil dog i had with jake this morning at my dads is a thing of the past. glad i also had him buy a case of water while we were shopping so then i had only water till i got home and ate my healthy lean cuisine lunch. heres something really strange, i actually look forward to eating them now. nice and easy i do not have to think about what i;m makin me for lunch and how many calories are in it. its most always filling of course i make sure i drink a ton of water with the ones that are less so before i go eat anything else. and they are more often than not quite tasty. i like trying the new different stuff. and the rice and noodles are pretty good without a ton of sauce and butter on them. now if only i could figure out how to make them for the fam and actually get them to eat it like that. hahahaha
so i stick with them for lunch now and know its good for me. and i'm happy eating them. i look forward to it. i saved(hid) a leftover slice of pizza from the other night. yesterday i had other leftovers i could better add up what the caloried were in my head. today because of the devil dog i figured i had to eat the better lunch. but beyond that i actually wanted it not the pizza. strange strange strange. guess its good that for $2 i can try something different and know its better for me than some of the crap i'd normally make for myself. and feel good eating it knowing whats in it. yeah sure its not perfect its processed and high in sodium but still its better than picking all day, or steak umms and chips or grilled cheese or a big fat buttery bagel.
i've actually been craving a buttered roll for some reason lately. could be my girlfriend had one for lunch at work a few sundays ago and its been ages since i've had one so i'm thinking a stop for one soon may be in order. the longer i have it in my head the more i want it. so i just have to give in and go get it. before i wind up wolfing down 3 of them by them time i go get one :)
fit into a new(old) pair of jeans today. ones i haven't worn in awhile. although my old fav's i put on yesterday and forced myself to keep on for punishment i ripped off the minute i got home! so i'm thinking maybe i really did run that pair through the dryer at some point in time. these were the go to comfy jeans for when i felt fat and bloated and gross and had to go out. now they just suck. they are so uncomfy maybe the fit is off. i may just have to toss them as i at least have 2 pairs that fit and are comfy right now.
the summer vacation shorts is really what i have to make sure i can fit in. i have a few pairs still in one of my drawers and though i can get the jean pair on and zipped boy theres a dozen muffins coming out of my top if not more. and they hurt. so i keep going. january is almost over already but even if i'm still at 5 i think it's pretty damn good to start i just need to stay on the right road. i need some more warmer days though. i like being outside and i miss being outside. think that was a big part of my mood last week. certains i'm just going to have to put on the big coat hat and gloves and get out for a bit as long as the sun is shining. i need to be out there.